Could it be?
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I'm wondering tonight after reading
antennapedia's most recent entry if part of my problem with being a writer is the same as my problem being a programmer. That large scale ability to see the whole, the complexities of a project and to know how to fit them all together-- I never had that. I could solve small, kindergarten really, problems and set scripts running, and adapt scripts to somewhat new uses. But the higher level languages and concepts were quite beyond me.
Fanfiction seems a lot more like what I did, adapting of scripts/ preexisting programs to new, very limited situations. Sometimes the small problem solved was kind of neat, but, still, small. I get overwhelmed trying to create bigger structures, or I get a glimpse of the bigger thing, but once I begin to set details in place, the vision of the whole gets hopelessly muddled.
Not giving up, though. Sometimes magic happens in the small things, and when I practiced the writing craft more regularly, I occasionally did those things pretty well.
Maybe I just need to kick myself in the rear and do the practice of the craft every day, and stop making excuses for why I don't. Last week, yeah, I was sick. But I haven't been sick continually for the past couple of years.
I'm starting to set monthly goals. Last month, I accomplished a big one, writing that letter for my son. But some of my goals, like "finish X story" were too vague to be useful.
Maybe if I am more public about said goals I'll be more accountable? And more specific about what constitutes success?
Here are the March goals, then. Write at least 1 paragraph of description of some aspect of faery every day. Write at least one vignette or story about an aspect of my family's history (something my eldest son kind of asked for. I realized when I started the recent stuff and then shied away and started looking at earlier times, how much is lost from those times because nobody wrote it down or is still alive who remembers it.)
Other goals: I think I've already accomplished one: choose something to adapt for Script Frenzy in April (Nanowrimo's sister event.) 100 page screenplay in 30 days. I'll have to add the writing of some reasonable storyline to make into a script. I've chosen the Book of Job.
Some other personal goals, involving going to the gym and hiking as the weather gets warmer.
Ask me in April how well I did.
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Fanfiction seems a lot more like what I did, adapting of scripts/ preexisting programs to new, very limited situations. Sometimes the small problem solved was kind of neat, but, still, small. I get overwhelmed trying to create bigger structures, or I get a glimpse of the bigger thing, but once I begin to set details in place, the vision of the whole gets hopelessly muddled.
Not giving up, though. Sometimes magic happens in the small things, and when I practiced the writing craft more regularly, I occasionally did those things pretty well.
Maybe I just need to kick myself in the rear and do the practice of the craft every day, and stop making excuses for why I don't. Last week, yeah, I was sick. But I haven't been sick continually for the past couple of years.
I'm starting to set monthly goals. Last month, I accomplished a big one, writing that letter for my son. But some of my goals, like "finish X story" were too vague to be useful.
Maybe if I am more public about said goals I'll be more accountable? And more specific about what constitutes success?
Here are the March goals, then. Write at least 1 paragraph of description of some aspect of faery every day. Write at least one vignette or story about an aspect of my family's history (something my eldest son kind of asked for. I realized when I started the recent stuff and then shied away and started looking at earlier times, how much is lost from those times because nobody wrote it down or is still alive who remembers it.)
Other goals: I think I've already accomplished one: choose something to adapt for Script Frenzy in April (Nanowrimo's sister event.) 100 page screenplay in 30 days. I'll have to add the writing of some reasonable storyline to make into a script. I've chosen the Book of Job.
Some other personal goals, involving going to the gym and hiking as the weather gets warmer.
Ask me in April how well I did.